Weight last time: 173

Weight this week: 171

Loss/gain: -2

Weight last time: 173.5  lbs

Weight this week: 173 lbs

Loss/gain: -.5 lbs

Weight this week: 173.5 lbs

Loss/gain: -.5 lbs

Weight this week: 174

Loss/gain: -1

Weight last time: 176

Weight this week: 175

Loss/gain: -1

I gained more weight in 2 months than I thought I possibly could!

But that’s what complacency will do to you.

Its taken me weeks to even have the courage to get back to thinking about blogging and even more so to actually step on the scale.

Well, I did today and the results are hideous!

Perhaps I got too cocky  and thought “I” would never gain the weight back after all “I” went through.

Well guess what 

“I” did!

So here “I” am but there is hope.

Just like the Phoenix that orchestrates its own end but only to give birth to new life and new hope.

My journey too now needs to take on a new direction – it needs rebirth.

This time with an even greater consciousness than before.

My first goal is 10 pounds in 10 weeks.
 
Join me…….

Weight last time: 158

Weight this week: 176 

Loss/gain: +18

The results have been nothing short of disastrous.

I guess I stop posting when I want to stop looking.

I’ve been on vacation mode from everything.

Well after 10 weeks I have finally plucked up the courage to look again…

And what I see has blown my top off.

I have gained 16 lbs!!!!! 

Sounds impossible….one would think so right…

I have gained 16 lbs in 10 weeks and I cannot believe it.

Thats what India will do to you though.

So no more hiding…

Good bad or ugly – I’m back to posting at least my weight every single week.

The slide must end now.

Weight last time: 158

Weight this week: 174 (that hurts so much)

Loss/gain: +16

Let me tell you something – there is NOTHING occasional about special occasions.

In my life they are year round, week round and sometimes even day round.

And it all involves food – and copious amounts of it.

So how to deal with it……

Boy I’m really still figuring that one out.

Here are some things to think about whilst grappling with special occasions:

• We really believe that food makes the holiday.

• Foods speak of tradition, continuity, celebration and family.

• Eating at special occasion signifies belonging and we all want to belong.

• Have just a wee bite but then the first bite leads to many many more.

• So take a pen and paper and strategize and come up with an approach that works for you to face the special occasions.

You must too…….

A cup of milk tea with sugar cannot be drunk without something sweet.

A really spicy meal has to end with a luscious dessert.

And my list goes on and on and on as does the eating.

I spin from one food to the other like an out of control top.

The thing is that if I had resisted that “first bite”…things would have halted right there.

I see how I can walk down the aisle of the supermarket, telling myself not to pick up that bag of salt and vinegar chips but somehow it lands in my cart anyway.

And then in the car I say I will not open the bag but again miraculously the waters part and there I am with an empty bag in my hand by the time I reach my front door.

The lesson is – it’s all about resisting that first bite.

Know yourself – know that you CANNOT take that “first bite”.

Stop it then.

Sometimes it’s the only chance we have…….

Here are some of my favorites excerpts from this chapter:

• Many of us have a deep-seated denial when it comes to dealing with snack attacks – what will one lil bite hurt.

• THE FIRST BITE LEADS TO THE BINGE!!

• Some foods simply cannot be eaten safely – these are our trigger foods.

• Use the tools we have on hand – the MP to see the big picture of the day…the journal to help us dismantle every snack attack, the four questions to lead us into healthier eating.

• Sometimes we just have to quickly utter a prayer to help us resist a first bite.

• WE CALL IT COMFORT FOOD BUT HOW COMFORTABLE ARE WE AFTER BINGEING ON IT?

Weight last time: 159

Weight this week: 158

Loss/gain: -1

• Snack attacks tell us they are harmless.

• They play into our rationalizations.

• Snack attacks come when we are bored or we have a difficult emotion we do not want to face.

• We snack when we are HALT but we also snack when we are joyful, excited – wherever an emotion catches us off guard.

• A snack attack is like a daily mugging – it always catches you by surprise. The next day you feel hung-over exactly as if you had binged on alcohol.

• Sometimes food is what we do INSTEAD of life.

• We not only stuff our feeling, we stuff our actions too. Instead of doing that important task, difficult job on hand, creative step – we eat to prepare ourselves to get to do the job and soon we are so full that the job becomes unreachable and distant.

• Get sober about food.

• Snack attacks are lethal. They add not only to our physical weight but our psychic weight as well.

• Instead of facing the difficult conversations we need to have we turn to the fridge for understanding.

• As the pounds pile up – so do our resentments.

• We leave too many things unsaid even when we are asked, “What’s eating you?”

• Snack attacks are a bar to intimacy. Not just with our mates but our kids, etc.

• Many mothers suffer Snack attacks when their kids come home from school.

• Sloshed from a sugar high the Snack attacks leave us emotionally impaired.

• Life happens in a haze and we disconnect from others and ourselves.

• Sometimes we use food to substitute our needs for intimacy.

• Snack attacks are dietary u-turns – we do well until…

What to do when faced with the Snack Attack

• Instead of acting out we need to take a new healthy action.

• Turn to asking the four questions.

• Turn to our journal and ask what am I not expressing.

• We can also turn to our higher power and pray “please help me now”.